Alhamdulillah

Allah masih bagi nikmat dan kesempatan untuk hamba menuntut ilmuNya

tonight, I studied until 1.15am.. hopefully then I can see the comparison between the two ways to storing the energy.. reading, reading and reading... to make a research.. this is what we are doing right?...

I am purely grateful because I have all this.. I have rahmat hidayah.. ada iman ada Islam.. itu adalah kurnia Allah yg paling dan sering mengingatkan siapa aku dan ke mana aku..

So have to sleep.. tomorrow many things to do more..

alhamdulillah...............

Hikmah segalanya..

First day in Pekan campus.. now I know how is it.. alhamdulillah...
jejak sj kaki di kampus ni memang do not know where I must go... tapi Mr Lee yang baik hati dengan sgt berbesar hati mempelawa untuk ke pejabatnya.. the whole day he will be in his class.. so he said.. you can stay in my office because Cemerlang Office (mine) not finish setup yet.. emm xpe2...

Hikmah yg ckup banyak terlihat pada hari ini.. I read the mathurat in the bus on the way to Pekan.. awal pagi tadi sebenarnye kemalasan menyelubungi diri ni. Tapi alhamdulillah dapat lawan dan akhirnya berjaya ke kampus ni. bertuah sungguh jadi insan terpilih untuk mengharungi halangan2 seperti ni.. yang penting jaga iman dan cuba tepis sangkaan2 buruk yg datang..

Pointer yg xmencapai 3 semasa degree bukan penghalang untuk terus cari maksud hidup.. apa yang mahu dilakukan dalam hidup.. cuma yg jadi agak kecewa bila memikirkan.. boleh tak nak membahagiakan mak nanti... emm.. abuya make joke.. but really meningful to me... abuya kata abuya bank in kan 13,000.. i thought RM13,000.. rupanya 13,000 pahala... yg ni lagi bagus.. ade makna tu abuya kecek gitu...

i am busy.. now a lot of discussing.. reading.. and writing... hmm.. another time i will typing here again!!!

Masih ada rahmat untukku hari ini.. thank you Allah

Masih ada rahmat ujian untukku hari ini
Masih ada rahmat hidayah untukku hari ini
Masih ada rahmat kasih sayang untukku hari ini
Ku bersyukur padaMu ya Allah, Tuhan semesta alam yg Esa dan Maha Mengetahui hati-hati ini

Apa2 pun yang dilakukan, harapan moga Allah sentiasa kurniakan taufiq hidayah pada diri ini. Sememangnya tidak terlepas dari pelbagai ujian saban hari.. namun tetap mengharap Allah akan terima taubatku ini..

Semalam hadir ke satu program anjuran SAHAM stand for Sahabat Masjid "Ladies Night".. meriah.. tahniah buat junior2 yg berjaya memastikan acara berjalan lancar walaupun start pun memang 1/2 jam lewat.. ada fashion show, nasyid, dikir barat, persembahan silat dan sebagainya..
Ingin sentuh la sikit.. tntg 'kecantikan'.. emm, semua cukup lawa.. lemah lembut.. cantik.. ibarat kuntuman bunga di taman yg indah.. namun haruman serta serinya lain2.. pada sendiri.. suka sangat melihat bunga yg cantik.. namun ingin menemukan bunga yg mampu mengharumkan dengan auranya untuk sekitar yg terbentang.. siapakah sahabatku? siapa yg mampu menjadi penemanku? kini hamba lemah.. namun terus lemah dan lemah.. mungkinkah ini takdir bagiku?? tidak... ini adalah hasil dari tindak tandukku dan usahaku sendiri...

kadang2 menangis tanpa air mata.. kerana hati meronta mencari iman dan taqwa yang kian pudar dari dalam diri.. selalu mengharapkan penghargaan dan perhatian.. namun lebih hampa dan kecewa.. tidak seperti dulu lagi.. segalanya terhenti di situ..

late night.. making discussion with my partner last night.. wondering I am not in the right path..

[12:28:33 AM] kenshin_gan: ya...
[12:28:44 AM] kenshin_gan: anything want to discuss?
[12:28:55 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: hmm..
[12:29:04 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: many things.. confuse
[12:29:19 AM] kenshin_gan: just tell me
[12:29:42 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: but i think i have not enough information yet
[12:29:55 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: overall..
[12:30:03 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: what i got is..
[12:30:20 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: after did the piezo device..
[12:30:30 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: must think how to store the power
[12:30:44 AM] kenshin_gan: battery or capacitor?
[12:30:46 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: after storing it.. then how to control
[12:31:02 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: so far... i think batter using battery
[12:31:09 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: recharge the battery
[12:31:10 AM] kenshin_gan: a potential meter?
[12:31:42 AM] kenshin_gan: there are plenty of battery design... depend on what kind of battery is suitable for your purpose..
[12:31:49 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: but the problem is... the power is too small in amount
[12:32:22 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: i must find out how.. generate mybe in micro but can apply in mini
[12:32:30 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: that one use resonance
[12:32:33 AM] kenshin_gan: do you have any calcualtion or formula to show how is it work?
[12:32:40 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: yepp
[12:32:47 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: experiment also have
[12:32:53 AM] kenshin_gan: good..
[12:32:59 AM] kenshin_gan: better than me..
[12:33:01 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: but i want to find more
[12:33:23 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: the other problem... (but i still study on that..)
[12:33:39 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: sure is about control system... hehe
[12:34:09 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: sometimes.. i feel that.. i am too slow on that
[12:34:12 AM] kenshin_gan: how far you confident with your study about piezo?
[12:34:42 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: hmm... that one i cant sure it yet
[12:35:02 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: but base on the information.. and jurnal i found
[12:35:25 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: maybe it will be potential to make generator using piezo
[12:35:40 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: realy innovative..
[12:35:42 AM] kenshin_gan: do you have overall pircture of what is your research look like?
[12:35:57 AM] kenshin_gan: well, is good sign...
[12:36:18 AM] kenshin_gan: you now there is a good future within this research..
[12:36:27 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: i am otw to draw the overall flow
[12:37:03 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: i make a flow
[12:37:16 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: but many things more to clear up
[12:37:36 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: really worry about the software
[12:37:51 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: i need to learn more n more n more.....
[12:38:05 AM] kenshin_gan: in your research, you must think of the potential and critical questions where you must justify...
[12:38:30 AM] kenshin_gan: is not always learn.... but gather important information..
[12:38:52 AM] kenshin_gan: don't push too hard... cause this is a master program, not phD...
[12:38:54 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: now i already have the flow
[12:38:56 AM] kenshin_gan: relax..
[12:39:05 AM] kenshin_gan: can i see the flow?
[12:39:06 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: but yea2.. like u said
[12:39:12 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: must gather info...
[12:39:18 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: then choose the best way
[12:39:29 AM] kenshin_gan: send me the flow la...
[12:39:45 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: no.. i dont think it will be good
[12:39:59 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: not ready the carta minda lagi
[12:40:01 AM] kenshin_gan: let me see...
[12:40:06 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: all in sentence
[12:42:01 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: i wonder u will not understand
[12:42:06 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: okay just send
hmm..
[12:45:55 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: lg cepat
[12:46:25 AM] kenshin_gan: first files is about the performance of of hydrogen production based on different method of analysis...
[12:46:37 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: wait2
[12:46:40 AM] kenshin_gan: and then the constraint of the process..
[12:46:40 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: confuse2
[12:46:59 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: still doing technical paper on method?
[12:47:06 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: hah?
[12:47:40 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: klu mcm tu sy bleh hasilkan beberapa technical paper kalau ikutkan
[12:48:23 AM] kenshin_gan: as my usual style, put all the information in proper form...
[12:48:36 AM] kenshin_gan: always make summary of the study, finding...
[12:48:40 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: yep
[12:48:51 AM] kenshin_gan: is will be a good reference in the future..
[12:49:05 AM] kenshin_gan: But must be always relate and precise to the study
[12:49:16 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: emm.. this is why i always pening2
[12:49:39 AM] kenshin_gan: are you open my two files?
[12:49:45 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: ok2.. dah
[12:50:09 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: first is about performnce
[12:50:14 AM] kenshin_gan: in the second paper, is related to the previous paper on the resonant electrolysis..
[12:50:15 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: and then about improvemnt
[12:50:42 AM] kenshin_gan: in previous finding, i state how good is the technology based on literature finding..
[12:51:08 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: so then u choose the method?
[12:51:14 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: is it like that?
[12:51:19 AM] kenshin_gan: now i use science, fact, formula and method to prove it work as desired..
[12:51:28 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: yep.. i saw it
[12:51:36 AM] kenshin_gan: actully i'm not choosing a method..
[12:51:46 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: aha..
[12:51:55 AM] kenshin_gan: my methodology chapeter is like this...
[12:51:56 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: then?
[12:52:14 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: ok.. but like me...
[12:52:29 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: let say about the storing power method
[12:52:33 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: i still have to choose
[12:52:36 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: how??
[12:52:44 AM] kenshin_gan: first, i show that what is the general method to analyse the hydrogen production via faraday laws and thermodynamics..
[12:52:57 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: aha
[12:53:47 AM] kenshin_gan: then, is about the subject i want to reseach - resonant electrolysis- i show that is good... there is some other people have done it... (case study)..
[12:54:40 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: yepp
[12:54:48 AM] kenshin_gan: next, is the design of the testing apparatus, experiment procedures setup, water injector design and making of everything...
[12:55:22 AM] kenshin_gan: if all the paper work about the preparation is done, is mean that my methodology is done too..
[12:55:24 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: that one u dont make it yet is it?
[12:55:32 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: ok2
[12:55:33 AM] kenshin_gan: yes..
[12:56:04 AM] kenshin_gan: in the second file, last few pages haven't finish...
[12:56:16 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: how to be so clear like u had been
[12:56:31 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: hmm...
[12:56:38 AM] kenshin_gan: I'd gathered the information to continues but need a bit of time to digest and then summarise..
[12:56:41 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: many things to improve
[12:57:33 AM] kenshin_gan: I set target to myself, after finish this paper, the next to start is the apparatus set up.. and then make design of the test and injector..
[12:58:47 AM] kenshin_gan: as i meantion in the early discussion, your study is master, not phD...
[12:58:48 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: so when u will start the lab?
[12:59:05 AM] kenshin_gan: target is next sem..
[12:59:10 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: hmm..
[12:59:16 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: u have many time more
[12:59:25 AM] kenshin_gan: i also not clear about rnd last time i study master..
[12:59:37 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: i cant take too long for the paper
[12:59:47 AM] kenshin_gan: you are right
[12:59:53 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: but... i must clear about everything first
[1:00:15 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: if not.. i will not understand.. what i am doing
[1:00:21 AM] kenshin_gan: you should target to finish your paper work before the sem break..
[1:00:39 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: sept?
[1:00:47 AM] kenshin_gan: after that is the design and experimental setup
[1:00:53 AM] kenshin_gan: maybe
[1:01:32 AM] c@h@y@ kEteN@nG@n: okay
[1:01:36 AM] kenshin_gan: cheer up...
[1:01:45 AM] kenshin_gan: don't be upset...
[1:01:50 AM] kenshin_gan: oh yeah...

then i know that.. before semester break.. i must settled all.. =)

What to do with myself??

Pernah satu masa terasa nak menyangkal itu ini kerana xkena pada hati.. dengan kawan2.. dengan suasana.. dengan takdir.. dengan segala macam perkara yang hadir dalam hidup ni.. Hari ke hari kematangan datang dengan adanya hidayah dari Allah insyaAllah.. sekiranya dulu sendiri tidak mudah menerima sesuatu pendapat yg tidak selari dengan pendapat sendiri, kini mgkin lebih terbuka untuk mengkaji dan menilai.. apa yg penting adalah tertegaknya kebenaran bukanlah kemenangan.. x gitu?

Ijtimak Tabligh Sedunia
9-12 Julai adalah hari yg tersebut.. seawal 2-3 bulan sebelumnya abuya dah pun sibuk kerana melakukan persiapan utk ijtimak tu dengan jemaah2.. bila sebut tentang abuya.. tidak banyak yg boleh dikomen.. kerana bila melihat.. maka barulah akan tahu apakah nilai hidup abuya.. berani kata.. ckup berharga utk agama.... bukan bangga.. tapi mengagumi.. namun dalam bentuk yg sendiripun xmampu nak terjemahkan..

Sebab bila sendiri xboleh terima sindiran pada jemaah Tabligh adalah.. celik mata ni dah pun lihat apa yg diperjuangkan.. abuya mampu untuk menjadi orang kenamaan.. seperti rakan2nya yg lain.. namun... hmm.. itu bukanlah yg dikejarnya barangkali.. tapi bukan senang utk berjuang.. bukan senang.. sendiri menyaksikan air mata ibu... sendiri melihat segala2nya.. hnya sendiri yg faham dan semestinya Allah mengetahui segalanya..

Mohon Allah permudahkan segalanya yg bakal berlaku dalam ijtimak tu.. amiin


Tentang diri.. agak memerlukan ruang yang lebih luas.. suasana yg lebih meggalakkan utk study ni.. bukan nk bagi alasan.. tapi sesak nafas bila terpaksa bertapa mcm ni.. huhuuu sape yg suruh bertapa!!!.. hehe... apepun diri sendiri menyedari dan tahu apa yg perlu dilakukan utk terus melangkah ke hadapan dan bukan statik pada tempat yg sedang berdiri skrg.. Usah terlena wahai diri sendiri!! Lusa balik rumah insyaAllah.. sgt rindukan emak di rumah.... baalik kampung... wooo ooo ooo balik kampung... =)