Thursday, March 19, 2009

Merintih, menangis dan mengharap...


"Ya Allah, kuyakini bahawa ini semua adalah dugaan dariMu.. untuk menguji kesabaranku.. biarpun kuseringkali tidak dapat menahan apa yg teruji pada diriku namun Kau masih menyayangi hambaMu dengan limpahan dugaan yang sering mengingatkan.. Ya Tuhanku, adakah Kau sedang menyingkap tabir rahmatMu yg tidak kusedari.. sungguh kutidak menyedari betapa besar nikmat yang telah Kau berikan.. hati ini sering tergugat dengan dugaanMu namun di sini kutetap berdiri dan meyakini Engkau mengasihiku.. Ya Allah, andai yg ini baik untuk agamaMu, maka Kau jadikan ia takdir untukku.. jika sebaliknya maka Kau palingkanlah ia dariku.. segala yang kupinta hanyalah keredhaanMu.. kurniakanku kekuatan untuk meyakini apa yg kupinta.."

Tuhan.. rahmatMu melangit luas

First time he posing lawa
I am so tired....
Both of them very naughty....huh
She looks healthy..
These are all not in the range of my thinking.. who knows.. the operation date is 28th of April 2009.. "Ya Allah, andaikan ini baik untuk agamaMu, maka jadikanlah ia takdir untukku.. seandainya ia sebaliknya maka Kau palingkanlah ia dariku.." the doctor said I have 3 main problems.. my blood.. my urine.. and my kidney itself.. Pasrah... "Ya Allah, berikan ku kekuatan untuk menempuh segala ini" My father got an offer to be imam in sydney.. one more time.. i will separate with my family.. God know better.. still in consultation.. they will achieve the visa.. I hope my mother will getting well before they depart.. Kak itie already married.. Abg nahar will take care of her.. now mak and abuya want me to get married as soon as possible.. 28th March 2009 will be my engagement day.. former is the only merisik day.. Zahir's parent will come to my house to discuss about our marriage this Friday.. 20th March... then I also hope they can get the best decision for us.. Busy with my project I still can typing to post these words... my mind sometimes become unable to guess what gonna be happen.. only Allah know the future.. Some pic here... we went to the zoo... hmm but I really tired that day.... anyway as long as my family enjoy, I enjoy....