She is my mother here after..

This is what Allah had given to me.. for the last two years I had done the medical checkup for the kidney transplant. But today I had the result.. I cant donate mine for my mother.. Apa nak kata.. ini adalah apa yg Allah nak tunjuk.. inilah petunjuk Allah atas doa abuya.. I have to accept the faith..

I cant see my mother tired.. I cant see my mother sick.. I cant.... but when I must I cant although to cry.. dalam hati saja ada perasaan yg sendiri pun xboleh nak cerita pada sesiapa.. hanya Allah yg faham kerana DIAlah yg mencipta hati ini..

What I am thinking these few days.. are about my family.. myself with my religion.. I will not let my family just like that.. Mak.. bulan ni ninah xdapat tolong banyak sangat.. lps2 ni ninah akan tolong lagi.. Ya Allah, ikhlaskan hatiku ya Allah.. selamatkan kami ya Allah dalam tekad yg kami letakkan ini..

About jemaah.. I must choose one... for myself.. and I will state on the one I am in now.. J.. I will learn and try to adapt although untill when... I will commite.. insyaAllah

Mohon maaf pada sesiapa saja yg hatinye telah disakiti..